I miss Jerry
And I’m probably too drunk, at 3:58 a.m., to elaborate on that.
I miss the existence of Jerry Garcia.
He has been gone for eleven years and some days. I’m not sober enough to figure out just exactly how many more days than eleven years he has been gone. Rest assured he’s been gone for longer than I care to acknowledge.
I never actually knew the man, so it is preposterous and presumptuous that I would say something like, “I miss him.”
What I miss is what he gave me, and that is actually not gone. Surprisingly. I spent a part of this night at a party full of people I didn’t know and a part of it losing myself, blissfully, in what Jerry gave me, maybe without even knowing it.
The ability to let go of myself. My SELF. And just be. Just let everything go. Every worry, every fear, every everything. Just to let it all go and to just be. To let music enter me not through my mind but through my body. And to be fully aware of the ways different parts of my body can drive other parts. Maybe you understand.
Maybe you don’t.
But the fact remains. I miss Jerry. He was taken too soon. Selfish of me, I know. But I wasn’t done with him yet.
I have a few body parts I would consider unnecessary spares if you would consider coming back. Meaning, I don’t REALLY need my left arm all that much. If someone wants it, it’s all yours. As long as you give Jerry back.
I spent some time tonight crying while laughing and dancing, mourning while feeling alive with music. Can you mourn someone you’ve never met? Can you mourn him 11 years after he died?
I think, perhaps, that it would be good for me to go to bed.
But, so you you know?
I miss Jerry. Terribly.
I miss Jerry, too.
I saw Phil & Friends earlier this summer, and on the big video screens they projected those words, “I miss Jerry”. It brought a tear to my eye. Whether it’s helpful or not, know that you have lots of company — there’s thousands of people that recognize the world lost something special when Jerry Garcia left it.
oy vey
What’d you do, turn Jewish on me, KJ?
You wouldn’t understand. So poo on you.
11 years and 19 days.
Did you look that up on the internet?
No, I’m a walking Wikipedia.
I miss Jerry too, Viki. I was at a String Cheese show on his birthday this year and they closed the show with “I know You Rider” and many, many cheers for Jerry. I felt it all over again. Shucks, I wasn’t done with him, them, IT either:(
Hey I’m not anonymous. If forgot to fill in the thing.
And you used the word “shucks.” I’ve been laughing for several minutes and my family is looking at me funny.
get over it..all of you.
I found your blog when I typed the words “I Miss Jerry” into Google. I was considering starting a new blog, opening up with a post called “I Miss Jerry.” I’m right here with you! I think I will blog it, although after reading yours I’m not sure what I have to say that’s original.
[...] months ago on a melancholic evening, I typed “I miss Jerry” into Google and came upon this post on a blog called Viki Babbles. It captured much of the sentiment I was feeling at the moment [...]
Thats what happened to me.
I googled I miss Jerry and I ended up at this blog.
I really feel sorry for kids nowdays they have Justin Timberlake.
I had Jerry to grow up with.
And man do I ever miss him.
Same here typed i miss jerry while listening to my 500g hard drive full of soundboards making my 1000th mix cd for the car. Im in Atlanta and Phil’s comin in October woot.
Side note: I’m sure many of you have ventured into this, but I have been addicted to the bluegrass material he put out in with old and in the way and others. Some of the studio he work he did with david grisman tony rice and some others is truely superb. That has been keeping me going for a year with a new flavor of our friend.
Peace
Wow- same thing here. I googled “I Miss Jerry” and stumbled upon this. I never even saw the GD. Phil, Ratdog, The Dead, etc., yes, but never the GD. But yet I cannot help but be moved by the music. 60′s-90′s, I love all of it. That’s all.
Take care.
I understand!
Peace, Viki!
Kevin
Oh man, right now I’m listening to him singing at the first acoustic set since the early seventies… fucking beautiful. Im 19 but I still miss him. The music is so amazing it hurts to know I’ll never really experience it. Not a reproduction but the actual creation
I’m sitting here in japan wishing for anything I could just be back for the summer festies. Further at allgood… Mouth waters thinking about it… But yeah, we miss Jerry. I to found this from a google search, and I to have contemplated what limb I would give to have him back. He touched us all by giving so many years… I hope to god I can influence my children to love this music, Ha, I can’t imagine how horrible pop music will be 15 years from now….
I find my self crying all the time thinking about jerry. i miss him to death.